Everybody – My apologies here have been very cathartic, brought about from deep introspection. True to form, I've likely forgotten other people I've offended or wronged in life (unintentionally). This is an aspect of my personality that I'm in the process of acknowledging and turning around. It seems that I consistently forget to thank the people I count on (and care about) the most. Somehow, I've got a mental trigger that flips – taking my close relationships for granted. This makes me appear selfish, and that's not who I want to be (or what I want to be remembered as being). My passion is sometimes so strong that I forget to relay my thoughts effectively to others. I expect “everybody” to read my mind, which winds up creating nothing but frustration – and in its wake, confusion.

Exposing a personal weakness is something not oft recommended, but these admissions are directed at those who have been the closest to me (family included). I'm telling “everybody” that it's certainly an issue I'm aware of – and it's something that I want to change. I inherently trust people and give them my attention and energy without question, which I chalk up to having wonderful parents and having grown up in the kind-inclined state of Iowa. Like, I'll hold open the door for a complete stranger – but forget to serve my friends before I serve myself. Why? Again, I don't know for sure – I'm not a psychologist. But I'm aware of “the thing,” and doing what I can do to curb its influence on my personal and professional life. The key to me understanding this behavior is acknowledging that I think in the “big picture” 99.9% of the time. The details, while very important, are in a blind spot – and I need depend on others to take care of them for me (which isn't always the best thing for all involved).

I'm really a nice guy, but I'm also human. For that, I can't apologize.